Knowledge is power. Lack of knowledge is lack of power.
Dr. Bruce Lipton
We sat down for coffee to wait for her brother who allegedly dealt much harder with the same diagnose as mine: he walked much worse and his sister and his whole family concluded that he had given up on himself and surrendered to despair. Although several times she asked me to come to talk to him I turned her down because I don’t feel adequate to give any health advice to anybody and because she said this:
– Persuade him, convince him, make him do this…
I would go nuts if I was him. But this time I agreed because she said their mom asked me to do it – and moms are my soft spot – especially the ones who are protective and worried like my mom was – but most important – he wanted to meet me too.
Soon, a man on crutches lead by his wife came out on the terrace in front of the caffé, and he had a painful grimace on his face with every step he took. I guessed the pain was more psychological than physical. They were coming towards us so I concentrated on my inner state; I calmed down my breathing and I set a clear intention that the following conversation would be beneficial for all of us.
My first thought when they approached our table was that it was much easier for me to deal with my illness because I am a woman and I am “allowed” to be fragile and weak and it hurt my ego much less to ask for help – and I didn’t have the unwanted side-effect of someone cutting off my manhood. And that was exactly the case with this man: a bunch of over-worried women around him and a mother who in front of him said out loud to me:
– Anđa, please help him, convince him, make him do it… He gave up, he can’t do this…
I was surprised that he even agreed to do this meeting. Their concern and taking away his personal power evoked anger in me too and if I were him, I would chase them away with those crutches. But he was polite and he just tiredly bowed down his head so I refrained from commenting. I asked them to leave us alone to talk in peace and told them not to interrupt. Ah, love. I felt a lot of love in that family but what they did to their brother and son was not OK. Love is not wanting to help someone but believing in him and compassion. Leaving someone alone is much more loving than wanting to “save” someone at all cost. The Ego wants to help. The Ego thinks that he can do it and that person can’t. Trust and confidence in the persons own abilities are a lot more – Hey, he is not a child but a grown man and a father of his family.
I started my “representation”. I just wanted to tell him about what worked for me and tell him about how I found comfort in knowledge, scientific findings, and explanations of what came over me. I told him that I don’t want to talk about symptoms and even less about the things that can harm us because it was a road to madness. I told him that story about the atom which is much more energy than matter and that my biggest success happened since I started to change my energy. He liked that. He resonated with everything I said because he is an engineer and an inventor and he believes in data and provable facts. This man had it all clear, he just grew tired searching for a cure and a solution. I told him that there is no magical cure and that the solution lies inside of him. I felt gratitude because my loved ones left me in peace (kind of) although they called me insane and irresponsible for refusing the classical treatment by a neurologist. Also, I was grateful to myself because I was stubborn and because I didn’t care for anybody’s or their opinion, and that I endured five long years of their complaints, criticism and desperate worries. Only now as my change for the better is obvious, they leave me in peace.
He asked me how it all started for me and when did I have my first relapse but I stopped him at once saying it wasn’t important because my body and his body just showed our inner state. I asked him to recall how he felt before he got sick and to try to remember his inner state and he just said: Yes, you’re right.
If we try to ignore the inner world, as most of us do, the unconscious will try to find its way into our lives through pathology: our psychosomatic symptoms, compulsions, depressions, and neurosis.
Receiving the healing gift in MS, Mounina Bouna Aly
We said goodbye and I told his mom not to be offended but that she must get off his back, his sister not to be under their mom’s influence and to stop worrying her moms worries and that their son and brother was, in my opinion, a lot better than they thought and see his state and that I don’t worry about him at all. Once more, I asked them to leave him in peace and trust him because this was his lesson and he has to do it alone. He was thrilled that I said this and promised me that he will try the only thing he hasn’t tried yet: to change his energy. Although I wasn’t the one who needed his promise but the man in his mirror, I am not concerned.
Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at the moment.
Receiving the healing gift in MS, Mounina Bouna Aly